My upcoming D-Day, otherwise known as B-Day

Well... thankfully today is another day. I woke up, am alive, healthy, etc.

I have a birthday coming up pretty quickly... It's September 7th and this year I am going to be the golden age of 27. You may ask why I make a "big deal" of my turning one year older, but it's more than that. See I lost my father when I was 4 years old. When my father passed away he was 27 which is why this is such a pivotal year for me and me revisiting my true meaning on this earth. The other part is that my daughter is now 4 and the numbers didn't hit me hard until her birthday in June... So for almost 3 months I have been flipping out having a mid-life crises per se hoping that D-Day would never come to fruition. Although I can not take the day away, skip it or hide from it. The inevitable is that I will be 27! I am hoping that this year will give me the strength that I need to get through the rest of my life.

I have been told for essentially my entire life to pick up and move on. You can not dwell over your father... Um... HELLO, he IS my father. He helped create me for Pete’s sake!!! I just can't forget him like a bad habit! I will agree that 23 years ago grievance counseling probably wasn't around and who knows how small children handle the loss of a close loved one. I have been hanging onto memories totaling less than 4 years. I mean how old were you when you had your first memory?? I'd say I can remember things to when I was about 3. But only because I have no choice to remember then otherwise I'd have nothing to hang onto. And that's it; I am hanging onto the legacy of my father. He was such a great man and I miss him SO much...

My true thoughts are to live each to day to its fullest and have no regrets when your head hits the pillow at night... But I am still having small regrets at night and I want to know that when I go to bed that I am happy with what I have accomplished up unto this point. I mean I have had a pretty nice life... I built my house at 22 along with having my beautiful daughter all within the same year. So I am pretty fortunate to have all of that. But I want to seize the day!!

Writing this has actually become quite cathartic and is helping me to deal with the issue at hand... But I need to live what I preach.

As always... thanks for those of you who are reading... Normally I am not so depressing!!

GRRRR!!!

Ok... I have spent all morning trying to figure out how to work out this blog to fit my likings!!! HOLY CRAP! I know nothing about computers and programming... Where are all of my IT friends when I need them! Too bad I am not 100% "geek"!! Just 50%!

I just want to know how to add friends that I have come across on here now... then my work will be done-- for now!!

What Type of Candy are You??

You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.

Which kind of candy are you?
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Quiz Time!!

Quiz time...

1. What time is it? 9:21AM

2. Name as it appears on your Birth Certificate? Melissa Marie

3. Any nicknames? Mel, Lissa

4. Parent's names? Mary Elizabeth and Charles Wayne

5. Candles on your last cake? 26-- soon to be 27! Ugh!

6.Date that you regularly blow them out? September 7
7. Pet? Our Weimaraner-- Greeley and mutt cat-- Shelby

8. Favorite animal(s)? Cats and dogs

9. Tattoos? I have one on my back of a morning glory. I want two more, hopefully sometime soon! I know that I'd like to have an Armenian Cross, but... time will tell!

10.How much do you love your job? Eh, not too much right now... It's been pretty stressful and I have accepted a new position with a client starting in January!! Four months can not come fast enough!!!

11. Birthplace? Racine, Wisconsin

12. Favorite vacation spot? Las Vegas and anywhere with mountains

13. Ever been to Africa? No... but isn't out of the question!!
14. Stolen any traffic signs? Ah, no!

15. Ever been in a car accident? I have been in 2!!! One rear-ended and the other hit black-ice and spun out into a concrete median on the highway!!! Talk about freaking scary!!

16. Croutons or Bacon Bits? Both!

17. 2 Door or 4 Door car? Both vehicles 4 Doors and are gas HOGS!!!!!

18. Salad Dressing? Salad Dressing?? YUCK!!!! Lemon Wedges for me along with cracked pepper!

19. Favorite Pie? Not really a pie person...

20. Favorite Number? 7

21. Favorite Movies? Anything action-- too many to list!

22. Favorite Color(s)? Green and Blues

23. Favorite holiday? 4th of July, Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas
24. What is the last thing you ate? Dinner last night... Grilled Chicken with Cauliflower

25. Favorite day of the week? Friday

26. Favorite brand of body soap? Dial Body Wash

27.Favorite show? Prison Break (awesome), Nip/Tuck, Rescue Me, Over There, Desperate Housewives (Thank god for TiVo!!)

28 Toothpaste? I don't have a clue... whatever works for me!
29. Most recently read book? The Five People you Meet in Heaven and currently finishing Friday Night Lights

30. Favorite Perfume/Cologne? Perfume for me I wear J'adore by Christian Diore and for Cologne Pleasures for Men (Instantly makes me in the MOOD!!!!)

31.Favorite smell? I like fresh type smells... if that makes sense!!

32.What do you do to relax? Read, talk, chat, type, etc.

33. Favorite Fast Food? Nothing really is a favorite...

34. When was your last hospital visit? July when I thought I had a kidney stone!

36. Where do you see yourself in 10 years? 10 Years?? What happened to seeing yourself in 5 years or 3? I will have to think about that! But to answer the question... I'd like to be even further along in my career and always and of course, happy!

37. What do you do when you are bored? Play with my daughter or my dog

38. What time is it now? 9 :30AM

Hope that wasn't too boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!