Another one has gone postal...

My condolences go out to the families who lost their loved ones in the Post Office shootings in Goleta, California... It's a shame that any of us need to lose our lives at our job...

I just really wonder when the Government is going to formally screen their employees using modern testing on potential hires and current employees psychologically. You lose 5 good employees to one bad one... Just makes no sense!

There are seemingly more (granted it's been 8 years) of these types of outrages lately... Hell, maybe one day I may go postal!


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To answer another tag I got from my friend Otto... Name five of life’s simple pleasures that you like most:
1. I really enjoy spending time with my family
2. Sitting outside watching a storm roll in and watching the thunder and lightening
3. Having a good conversation with a friend
4. Reading a good book
5. Sitting near a body of water reflecting on thoughts.

Living life to the fullest...

I was having a bit of writers block until I talked to a friend of mine today... We were speaking of our spirituality and our "place" and "meaning" here on this Earth... *cue crickets*

A few months ago some of you may recall I had a really hard time turning a year older for my last birthday. Well, it's almost 4 months later and I feel as if I have been trying to live true myself and to live each and every day to the fullest.

Life isn't about the house you live in, the car(s) you drive, the salary you make, or what tangible things you have to "show" your "worth". Admittedly, I have fallen into the "let me show you this, that and the other thing" to a point. I am young, to some... I built my home at the tender age of 22 and have always felt a bit older than a lot of other people my age... Some adults don't build their own homes, ever. So I am very proud of myself.

It's what is inside of you. To show your "worth" to your peers or others surrounding you, wear a bit of you on your sleeve. Let others know who you are. Try to do one "uncomfortable" thing a day, a week, or a month. You will see different reactions from others and it could be quite rewarding. For example, if you are in management... Tell your staff thank you once and awhile. Morale will boost a bit.

I have learned to communicate about issues I have suppressed and just let build up. I have made efforts to speak calmly and rationally about them. I go to bed with a clear conscious knowing that I have spoke my peace.

have learned to set small personal goals for the short-term and larger goals for the long-term. Admittedly, no long term goals have been accomplished, but that is why they are called a long-term goal!!

I just want to make sure whenever I exit this journey called Life that I will have no regrets. I want to make sure I hug and kiss my daughter daily and constantly remind her of my love I have for her. I want to make sure that my husband knows that I appreciate him and what he has contributed to our relationship.

Learning this small valuable tool has let me be at peace with myself.

Now I beg to ask the question... How do you plan on living day to the fullest?

"A Million Little Lies" or is it Nine Hundred Ninety Nine Thousand Little Lies???

I am going to disregard my usual Friday Funny posts this week and post in the "heat" of the moment of a current event...

There has been a lot in the news about James Frey regarding his book published in 2003, A Million Little Pieces.

I followed suit about this book with the rest of America because of the notoriety it received from well respected figures on television and close friends. I asked for the book as a gift for Christmas. I really didn't want or need anything so I got the book... I started reading it the day I got it. Like everyone else I know, I couldn't put the book down. I had to fight with my innerself to put it down to cook, clean and be a parent. Yes James had a good way of drawing you in as a reader. I guess that is what they call a good writer.

When I saw some news headline on regarding the Mr. Frey firing back at TheSmokingGun I too fell to believe that it was all a hoax and just another bullshit story... I quickly dismissed it and never thought of it again... (If it weren't for the workers at TheSmokingGun Mr. Frey would still be getting all of this sympathy, for NOTHING!)

I now, personally believe yes, that James did indeed lie to his readers... But in the real perspective of things... Does he really care? I highly doubt it. He has a best selling book and has already made his millions. His pockets are full and he is reaping the benefits of his creativeness.

Now did he dupe or mislead his readers, abso-freaking-lutely! Am I am upset about that, yes. But life goes on. Was it a good book? Yes, it was a fabulous book. I cried, I was horrified, I was laughing in certain parts of this book. I felt for this kid. I was proud that he "turned' his "so-called" life around. But really there was no life to be turned around.

A lot of me could not relate to Mr. Frey as an author... I didn't grow up in a bad neighborhood, not that he said he did. I didn't grow up with drugs or alcohol so hearing a lot of these terms were quite new to this naive Wisconsin native. I know it was around me, I just chose not to make it become around me. I did have family members who dabbled in drugs and lost a cousin at birth due to doing drugs, so I chose young in life not to succumb to the demons drugs create. I guess it took strong will, and I have absolutely no regrets.

No here's the burning question... Would I recommend this book to someone looking for a good quick book to read, of course. With the notoriety this book has received within the last 5 months who wouldn't read it out of curiosity? Oprah Winfrey promoted this as part of her Book Club selection, which is where I honestly first saw this book. I believe if Oprah didn't dedicate part of one episode announcing this book into her "club" and an episode of her employees reading this book the whole thing wouldn't have even mattered. Who would care? But since Oprah Winfrey literally stood up for this guy... She really had to redeem her credibility. I didn't watch the entire show broadcasted as her rebuttal and reprimand to Mr. Frey. In a sense he deserved it, but on the other hand, I applaud him for his diligence to get it published, but in the same token... Shame on him for lying to get the "job done".

At the end of the day... Mr. Frey won. No one else. He conned every single one of us into purchasing his book, schleping out to the library to "borrow" it just to be told it was all a lie.

I hope both his mother and father are proud of him and how he has represented the Frey name. They are all a bunch of liars and cheats...

I know my views my be a bit down the middle... but hell I am allowed that damnit! I feel as if I see both sides of the token on this one here...

And lastly... My burning question is how can you sleep at night knowing that millions feel terrible for you and your ordeal that you have made so public? How do you take the "Poor Jimmy's"??

Home Remedies...

While reading this article in the Readers Digest for February 2006 I found this article about stuff around your house rather interesting....

If you are in a pinch to remove makeup you can use a "dab" of shortening and that supposedly will "do the trick"... What about "clogging" the pours??? YUCK!!!

For those of you who chew gum and ""accidentally"" get it stuck in your hair... If you are an adult, shame on you!! For children this could be a good idea.... Take peanut butter, don't know if you should use creamy, chunky or extra chunky for this one... Use your judgment and rub the gum with it until it comes out... Fair enough...

Let's say you are having a bad day at work and absolutely need a facial... Instead of using this product while grilling out your favourite hot dog, use it on your face!! MUSTARD used as a facial??? Um... this is what this article says.... Use a mild yellow brand to soothe and stimulate your skin. Disclaimer, but be sure to keep away from your eyes and test on a small area first to make sure it doesn't irritate your skin. Now you sound like a piece of fabric for testing!!

You got smelly armpits??? Well... "Splash" some vinegar under your arms to reduce your natural body odor and replace it with the awful stench of vinegar!!!!! Thankfully this gets rid of your deodorant stains on your blouse or shirt. Whew!

A cure-all for shaving cream... Take the butter from your toast and slather onto your wet skin for a baby smooth shave...

Man before the end of this post I am going to smell like a barnyard animal!

This one sounds usable... In the event you have one of those awful adult acne breakouts and can't muster it up to buy Oxy from your local drug store crush an aspirin and add a bit of water, make it into a paste wait a few minutes and wash off. It will reduce the redness and relieve the sting. I have heard a girlie hint that toothpaste works too... But have never been able to do that one either. The aspirin one sounds like it would work...

To soften your scaly elbows knees, ankles, etc.. You can treat them with a lemon juice/baking soda paste... Hmmm... I wonder about this one! While working around the house or yard and you get a splinter and the sterilized needle doesn't work then cover the wound with tape. After 3 days (of having Scotch tape on your finger --yeah right), pull of the tape and the splinter may, yes I said may come with it. What a leap of faith there!

To remove the smell from your hands while cooking or doing whatever take a few coffee beans, rub them together and they will absorb the smell. This should hold true as coffee beans are used in the fragrance departments in your higher end department stores to clear out your nasal passages while shopping for new perfumes.

If you have really smelly feet and your family passes out when you remove your shoes at the end of the day... Take Fluffy's kitty litter and put it in two old socks, tie them off and put them in your smelly shoes over night. Now you will have non-smelly shoes and before you know it your cat will be shitting in your shoes!! I'd prefer the smelly feet hands down!!

These other remedies were briefly mentioned...

Conditioner?? Move over Nexxus here comes Miracle Whip! Yes mayonnaise as your conditioner!! EW! I am dry heaving as we speak!

Have you broke a glass?? Take a piece of bread to pick up the shards... Ingenious!

This one is a classic! In the event you are too effing lazy to get your ass to the home improvement store you can use Vodka, dish soap, and water as a weed killer. The vodka doesn't kill the weeds, just drys it up... Then you can drink the remainder of the active ingredient... Watch out for your neighbors drunk off their asses...

Before you throw out your banana peels, be sure to polish your shoes with the yellow part of the peel. Oh, and just in case you have extra mis-matched socks laying around... put kidney beans in them tie them off for heating pads. This may be better than the rice ones... It's worth trying out. My biggest dilemma is whether to use red or navy beans!

So with all of these new remedies...

Which ones are you going to try???

Be careful, it *will* electrocute you!

Well to those of you out there that are parents I am sure at one point in time you have had to deal with the incontinency of a child. Mine is no different... She is potty trained by day and lazy as hell at night!

So earlier this week she ran out of Pull-Ups without telling me... So it was showtime! Either it's now or never... Well the hype turned into more laundry for mom! YEAH! The next night I forgot and same thing... Third night I reminded myself while out shopping and forgot to get the Pull-Ups on the list in red... Way to go Melissa!

So I get home from the grocery store and start freaking that I have to go back out to Wal-Mart. When I was there I had to get Pull-Ups and cat litter. I run in the store to get the Pull-Ups and see this "new and improved" kind with this blue line reminiscent to a maxi-pad of sorts built into the "underwear". This is supposed to make your child more aware that they actually pissed themselves. Ok, cool! I grab two packages of these bad boys. I then run towards the pet aisle like I am in Super Market Sweep, loved that show! I pass this older black woman and she kinda nods her head at me and I smile. Well I get to my aisle and had to wait to turn in as there was someone hogging the entire aisle... All the while I hear "What kind of Pull-Ups do you have? What kind of Pull-Ups do you have? What kind of Pull-Ups do you have?" The woman is running at me and grabs a package out of my cart and asks again... What kind of Pull-Ups do you have? Um... I dunno. The girl kind, I guess. Thinking this woman is a whack job. Then she pulls out two coupons to compare brands and the product line. So here I am thinking she wants my package or wants to know if Wal-Mart carries the particular line on the coupon. After a few seconds she says they are the same! Almost like EUREKA! She said here are two coupons; make sure you use them as you will be saving $3. I was shocked. I couldn't believe this woman offered "free money" to a stranger. I thanked her profusely as I was very appreciative of her generosity and went on my merry way.

I come home and tell Em about these new and improved Pull-Ups... It's kinda funny, but mean... So brace yourselves. I will preface this saying that my hubby and I had a conversation within the last two weeks talking about how I went to school with a chick and she had something that shocked her when she wet the bed in elementary school. Me being the jackass that I am I begin to tell Em if she wets her Pull-Up the new blue strip will shock or electrocute (can't remember) her bottom to wake her up! She took it like a brave little girl and said ok.

A few minutes later she is sitting on the stairs with her voice quivering saying I want my Pull-Ups in the box (meaning from Sam's Club), I don't like these ones. I don't want my "potty" to get hurt! I was in stitches laughing my ass off. While my hubby is saying, "Way to go! Way to scare the kid!” I thought it was funny and so did he.

So you may ask if she wet the bed/Pull-Up, whatever...? Yes... I knew it and she never said anything to me... I finally asked her today if she wet herself again and she said yes... I said well we need to try to work on it. She says ok mommy... Then she goes into about how she wasn't "electrocuted". She got the na, na, na's on me basically. That was pretty funny!

She then told me that when she wet her Pull-Up, the blue part tickled her bottom. Oh, ok... “Did that make you get up and go to the bathroom?” I ask... “No mommy, I was sleeping. I didn't wake up!”

Wasn't the best I ever had...

Today I took Em to see the Incredibles on Ice by Disney... What a crock this show was... To those parents who haven't wasted their money yet... Please don't.

We went to what I call the Gund Arena, yes it sounds like a disease, but it is certainly better than "The Q" or Quicken Loan Stadium.

Well... whenever you go to these kind of events, plan on bringing a ton of cash because it's not cheap!

I was kind of excited to see how this rendition would play out on the ice as I have seen a ton of Disney productions on the ice. This was about the worst... It really had nothing at all to do with the movie. Disney pulled all kinds of shameless plugs. It started off where the Parr's where going to Disneyland(world), whatever... OK, NOT PART OF THE ORIGINAL MOVIE! I know, because I have seen it almost a million times.

Then they end up at Disney wherever... They are chosen to be a part of the parade. Ok, fine I get that. There's about 25 parades a day at the theme parks.

Somehow they end up on this jungle type cruise and end up meeting Baloo from the Jungle Book. Yeah... that's really realistic considering those movies are 100 years apart! Then magically they appear with Alice and Wonderland... Same thing... How the hell does that freaking happen? Then after they see Balloo and Alice they come back to "reality" to The Pirates of the Caribbean! Yeah... I think we are thinking the same thing!! What the hell happened to any of the plot from the first movie?? Not to mention various other locations located within the Disney Theme parks... Tourism must be down, I swear!

Well I guess the bad guy, Syndrome, from the movie came back as a clone and that's how this new Ice program was created. Good thinking there Disney. After you gave up on your deal with Pixar, things really went to shit as far as creativity on ice goes... That's for sure.
The music choices they had were pretty bad too... I'm too Sexy by Right Said Fred, Burning Down the House by Talking Heads, Invisible by Clay Aiken to name a few... This was a kids show! You shouldn't be talking about being sexy for anything. Burning down the house?? Yeah, let's teach today's children that!! What the heck?!

So I guess that's my review for this show... From an adults point of view. I am an unhappy parent as far as content goes...

As far as my daughter enjoying it, that is an entirely different story. She LOVED IT! She shook her little toosh off. She was happy to see Cinderella, Pluto, Donald Duck, Mickey and Minnie...

She's going to visit them in a few weeks, so I am sure she can't wait. And I pity the poor characters cooped up in those costumes! They are certainly going to catch an earful about her time seeing Disney on Ice today!!

Really when it does boil down to things... She really did have a good time. I may be over critical, but the parents are being dragged to see this shit after all... If only I drank beer, I swear! I was behind a guy at a concession stand who bought 2 cold ones before the show. I could have used a few to numb myself from this show. It would have been an easier pill to swallow, that's for sure.

~End rant~

Friday Funny (v. 7)

This one is for all of you parents concerned out there about your children losing their virginity on prom night... there is plenty to go 'round! Talk about being prepared!

I'll tell you... this one sure beats the local duct tape competitions in the area hosted by Manco!

They say the most dramatic things...

Well tonight we broke out the Showtime Rotisserie Barbeque... It's been awhile since we have used this thing as it is very bulky, but makes great food... My hubby begged and cried for this damn thing when it was popular about 5 years ago... For the record I hate it... Not for its lack of ease of use... Just because I hate it...

Em was talking about the metal looking cage on your left saying that is where her hamster lived... Um, what hamster? She's never had a hamster and neither have I! She was so dead-set on actually having a hamster... Guess it takes all kinds to think like a child!

I had a few gerbils that were both supposed to be boys and they procreated into miniature weenies or so called offspring! Talk about the freakest moment in my adolescent life! To see miniature weenies wiggling around in a cage! Yeah... scary shit if you have never seen anything like that before!! The picture to the right is exactly how they look when first born... Tell me they don't look like they'd be edible with some barbeque sauce and a toothpick!!!

To top the night off Em was talking into a seashell we got from Sanibel Island, Florida... Don't know if it exists anymore with the last hurricane that blew threw there... It is/was the seashell capital of America...

I guess it's better than talking into her hand like a cell phone. Creativity is her strong point! That is for sure!

Anyone in there???

Imaginary friends are welcome!!

New Renter...

For this week, I'd like to welcome my good friend Ken or as he calls himself, EccentricFather ... He's the opposite of me, a Daddy Blogger... He has two adorable children that he blogs about all of the time! Please click on his link to the right and show him some support!


Also... I'd like to give homage to a previous renter and good friend of mine Brian, who is serving in the United States National Guard. He is currently serving in Iraq and hopefully will be coming home soon! Recently his blog was reviewed by an Online Journal... Please check this out as you will not regret it!

A trip to remember…

Over the weekend I decided that I would do something that I haven’t done in a long, long time (like 10 years)… Go to an adult bookstore… Heck, there was one recently built near my house and I see it everyday.

I have been tempted to go there for a while now, just to take a peek! I mean the name of the place even makes you wonder and want to check it out. Sooo… the family gets home and I say… let’s go here! My hubby says we can’t go with Em… So I said I’ll go! I mean what the heck do I have to lose?? So I drop them off and traipse back to the “store”, as I will call it.

I drive the few seconds and pull in, park and this place used to be a Payless Shoe store so there are big glass windows that you can see in. It’s not like your Main Street shops where the windows and doors are darkened… You can clearly see in which was a bit weird, but um, ok… So I park where you can’t see my vehicle… I didn’t want to look like a total pervert with Fraternal Order of Police license plates… So out of respect for my hubby I was a good wife and parked out of plain site!

So I walk in the store… There are those security “things” that are at stores like Target, Best Buy, Wal-Mart, etc… To my left there is a glass counter three sided and a male kid, I say kid because he looked barely over 18… Maybe 18, plus a few hours… He stands up and says I need to see your ID… Does it look like I am younger than 18? I have never “looked” 18… I have always looked older which has been helpful at times. So I take it as a compliment with me being the old fart that I am and flash my ID to him. In my wallet I have my hubby’s badge next to it… So here I thought that would work. Um, no… He says I need to scan it. What?! Ah, ok… I take it out and he scans my ID into their system. So now my information is floating around in this system that I am sick pervert! I am thinking to myself… Is he going to show up at my house and follow up on any purchase? Is my personal information going to be sold somewhere? Does this information wind up to the local law enforcement agencies, The Feds… Yes paranoia set in for a few moments. Then the guy said, my name is Steve or whatever… If you have any questions, please let me know. Um… ok! Gotcha, thanks! Again, I am thinking to myself… What does this kid know that I wouldn’t?? So I smile and carry on…

In the front part of the store there are just your normal Spencer Gifts type gifts, gags, giggles, and etc. Then you had your play outfits, garters, fishnets, and shoes… Moving onto the dominatrix stuff… Whips, chains, and everything else you can think of for that type of genre of sexual play. Moving onto sexual accessories… They now have the medicine balls used in physical therapy and Pilates being marketed as sex aides to throw your partner into various positions. Sex swing will become obsolete before long!! Then there was this 6 inch foam mat thingy that had wedge accessories for various positions which seemed a bit enticing, but not for roughly $200!!

So I head back to the partitioned area…. One-way in, one-way out... In this area is where all of the naughty stuff is… Well hidden!! To your left is a small area of videos and magazines… I didn’t even bother to look at those… Two-dimensional just isn’t fun! To the right is all of the “toys”. It’s been awhile since I have seen toys… There were all different kinds of things, but the one thing I saw I couldn’t believe my eyes… I was going to take a picture with my camera phone, but didn’t want to get in any kind of trouble was this double ended dildo… Yes… We have all seen them, but this one was like no other!! It was about 3 feet long and the ends were bigger around than the biggest part of a baseball bat!! I almost collapsed in pain just from seeing this thing. Who on earth could “take” that??? After seeing that and the rest of the stuff back there all I could do was laugh, giggle like I just turned 18! It was hilarious! (I would have put a picture, but couldn't find anything suitable)

I end up leaving and getting back into my SUV laughing my head off! I go home and have a great story to tell the hubby!! If only he could have seen that “thing”!!

I guess I am getting too old for some of the newer things out in the adult market!!

Why's and what's??

Hopefully my room isn't empty after this post!!!

What do you call two Mexicans playing basketball?
Juan on Juan

What is a Yankee?

The same as a quickie, but a guy can do it alone.

What is the difference between a Harley and a Hoover?

The position of the dirt bag.

Why is divorce so expensive?
Because it's worth it.

What do you see when the Pillsbury Dough Boy bends over?

Why is air a lot like sex?
Because it's no big deal unless you're not getting any.

What do you call a smart blonde?
A golden retriever.

What do attorneys use for birth control?
Their personalities.

What's the difference between a girlfriend and wife?
45 lbs

What's the difference between a boyfriend and husband?
45 minutes

What's the fastest way to a man's heart?
Through his chest with a sharp knife.

Why do men want to marry virgins?
They can't stand criticism.

Why is it so hard for women to find men that are sensitive, caring, and good-looking?
Because those men already have boyfriends.

What's the difference between a new husband and a new dog?
After a year, the dog is still excited to see you (image placeholder)

What makes men chase women they have no intention of marrying?
The same urge that makes dogs chase cars they have no intention of driving.

What's the difference between a porcupine and BMW?
A porcupine has the pricks on the outside. (gotta love it)

What did the blonde say when she found out she was pregnant?
"Are you sure it's mine?"

Why does Mike Tyson cry during sex?
Mace will do that to you.

Why did OJ Simpson want to move to West Virginia ?
Everyone has the same DNA.

Why do men find it difficult to make eye contact?
Breasts d don’t have eyes.

Did you hear about the dyslexic Rabbi?
He walks around saying "Yo."

Why do drivers' education classes in Redneck schools use the car only on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays?
Because on Tuesday and Thursday, the Sex Ed class uses it.

Where does an Irish family go on vacation?
A different bar.

What would you call it when an Italian has one arm shorter than the other?
A speech impediment.

What does it mean when the flag at the Post Office is flying at half-mast?
They're hiring.

What's the difference between a southern zoo and a northern zoo?
A southern zoo has a description of the animal on the front of the cage along with... "a recipe".

How do you get a sweet little 80-year-old lady to say the F word?
Get another sweet little 80-year-old lady to yell *BINGO*!

What's the difference between a northern fairytale and a southern fairytale?
A northern fairytale begins "Once upon a time..." -A southern fairytale begins "Y'all ain't gonna believe this sh * it...".

Why is there no Disneyland in China?
No one's tall enough to go on the good rides

Mom! It's the Chopper Man!!

Tonight while at dinner we went to a local Mexican restaurant... My favorite food lately. I have nothing but cravings for salsa... Pretty soon, I swear I am going to turn into a Mexican!!

Well this couple was sitting kitty-corner from us and Em and I were facing the husband or male of the couple... He looked like Paul, Sr from American Chopper. I mean they could have been twins.

During our entire dinner I had to try my hardest not to say something as I am sure he hears crap all of the time about Paul, Sr. I chose to take the stare at him mode... The funniest thing was he was drinking a margarita!! I mean can you picture the guy to your left drinking anything but a beer or a Jack Daniels or something?? This guy is seemingly pretty hard core, but a margarita?? Come'on!!

So, yet again... My daughter is hard at work with the "wheels" turning in her brain trying to embarass mom any way she can.

Kids are just wonderful!!

Friday Funny (v. 6) -- Sonofabitch??

Hearing what I want to hear...

Tonight I was talking to my sister-in-law... She asked me the question I was hoping to hear since the birth of my niece Madison... She asked me if I would be her Godmother! I instantly started to cry out of excitement as I am truly honored to have the coveted position of Godmother. I never had any expectations, but thought it would be bittersweet to be Maddy's Godmother... I am truly honored.

I witnessed the birth of this little girl while holding her mother's hand... Her mother and I cried out of joy in the operating room when we heard her first cry and listen to her take her first breath... I cut her umbilical cord and fed her, her very first bottle and now I will be gifted with a title other than Aunt. I am beyond words and I am truly flattered that I have been thought of enough to be the Godmother of two children, my niece Madison and my cousin Selena.

Life can't get any better than this...

Un-employment line, here I come!!

This may be old news to some, but I just heard that all of the coaching staff has been fired due to the terrible 2005 Season.

Head coach Mike Sherman all the way down to the Physical Therapists have been let go. When the new regime takes over they have the option to hire back selected coaching staff. My friend's brother that is amongst the other coaches that were fired may have the option to follow Sherman where ever he ends up. He's hoping to stay in Green Bay though... But who wouldn't?? (Don't answer that!!)

Wonder if they fired any players??

New tenant for the week...

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Mind vomit...

As a parent lately I have been asking myself why hasn't my child come with an instruction booklet??? She has thrown so many different things at me in her short life, which really makes me wish there was a guide out there.

I mean... there have been moments that I have taken having a child for granted... I guess to a point every parent does. I would have never come to that epiphany unless I was told I have secondary infertility... I never realized how much I appreciate my little person until I wanted to have another child... Having another child has been a dream of mine since the day Em was born. I ask myself, am I being punished because I am a bad parent? Am I to be gifted with only one? I enjoyed being pregnant to the point it made my friends sick... is that a sin? What about the people who get pregnant by looking at one another? Do they really appreciate the fact they have beautiful families without shedding blood, sweat and tears? Have they had to go through emotional heartbreak month after month? Wishing...? Hoping...? Praying...?

I see these families out and about with an excessive amount of children and I wonder did you really want all of those kids? I hear of teenage girls having abortions (to each their own--debate I will not get into)... What about people like me who has had difficulties conceiving another child? What are you going to do when you are 10 years older and want a child? I hear of women complaining of their pregnancies... Don't you think that there are millions of other women, who would literally die to be in your shoes??? Hell, I know I am one of them.

I just want nothing more to be a good mother, a patient mother, an understanding mother... Oh the list goes on... I just know that I don't want to be like my mom to my daughter and it scares the fucking crap out of me...

These are all raw thoughts not thought out at all... So this is my mind vomit... Thanks for making it to the end...

I have a hidden talent...

I saw this on another blogger's site and thought it was interesting...

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and complements.

Wonder if this thing is right??

Crazy Fours

I have received this "tag" from Miss Natalie... It's taken me awhile to get to, but nevertheless I have done it!!

Four jobs you've had in your life ::
Lawn and Garden joint

Fitness Club

Car Dealership(s)

Insurance Industry

Four movies you would watch over and over ::

Coach Carter


40 Year Old Virgin


Four places you have lived ::
Racine, Wisconsin

Waukesha, Wisconsin

North Ridgeville, Ohio

Sheffield, Ohio

Four TV shows you love to watch ::
Nip / Tuck


Prison Break

Did I mention Prison Break??

Four places you have been on vacation ::


Las Vegas, Nevada

Glacier National Park, Montana

Four websites you visit daily ::

Four of your favorite foods ::




And... Mexican

Four places you would rather be right now ::
Las Vegas



Visiting my friends and selected family in Wisconsin

Four bloggers/friends you are tagging ::
I will not be tagging anyone with these…