Ok... so have any of you watched PrisonBreak yet??
**EYE CANDY!**
who plays as Lincoln Burrows on the show that is on death row... and his brother Wentworth Miller, 
**EYE CANDY!**
Ok... so this afternoon I left the office for an appointment and as usual I am running late. I try my damndest to be on time for everything. Promptness is one pet peeve of mine. If you are late, bad impression! So I need to keep that in mind while my phone is ringing off the hook while I am trying to gather my belongings. I just need to tell myself, let it go to voicemail Melissa... You can always return the call.... I then hate voicemails because you are always taking two steps back. I am on the phone today for 3 minutes and got 2 voicemails!! GRRRRR!!! That is a good day too! As usual I digress.... I leave and proceed to "jet" to my location! I park and get there with one minute to spare! Whew!
I walk into the office building and press the elevator button, walk in and am sitting there for at least 5 minutes thinking to myself, how long does it take to get to the 5th floor? These elevators are normally fast. So after thinking that I look down to the floor panel... I FORGOT TO PRESS THE BUTTON! What a moron! I felt even worse because there is a video camera in there!! Happy Friday to me!!!
Ok, so last night I get a call from a good family friend of mine whom I will call "Joe". It was weird because I had been thinking of him the entire day. And our intuition brought us together in the evening...
So the telephone rings and right away I know who it is, hence Caller ID. I have to hand the phone off to the other half as I have laundry to do, yippee! So, it's finally my turn and whenever I talk to "Joe" I cry on the inside. You see, "Joe" is dying of cancer and we are in the minority about this terrible news. "Joe's" wife has had a terrible workman's compensation case where a patient at the hospital she worked at essentially attacked her and she has been out of work for over 2 years now with multiple neck surgeries. So "Joe" is trying to nurse her back to 100% before he breaks the news to her that he is indeed dying. He wants to make sure that she is taken care of before he departs this world. He doesn't want to stress her out with his illness. He continues to work everyday through the pain to maintain income for their family. He said he comes home everyday in such pain, but I know the blood, sweat and tears are all good ones. The fact that he is hanging in there and trying to hold back the pain is commendable. "Joe's" wife is very lucky to have him.
"Joe" used to a Marine and is one of the toughest men that I know. But on the flip side, the most emotional man I have met. He can let his guard down and share things with me that I will never forget. "Joe" is like a father to me, in fact I wanted my mother to remarry for the 3rd time to him. I have kept in touch with him for over 7 years now. I would love to call him "Dad", because he's the next best thing. As a result of this emotional attachment, I tell him I am not ready to let you go yet... I know how to face death and it happens to all of us every day. But why must the "good" ones be taken so soon.
"Joe" told me that he wants to "hang on" until he sees his daughter again that lives in
While visiting him in May we had a great time with him and his wife. We went to Door County Winery bought some more wine. YUM! It had been over 8 years since I had been there, so I stocked up! Actually drank a whole bottle of the Blackberry Merlot... We also went to Lambeau Field which I have mentioned about in previous posts, and then lastly we went to this nice art studio where I always pick up something every time I am there because the art is exquisite.
So as I totally digress, "Joe" collects pieces from John Perry- Link 1 and John Perry- Link 2. To elaborate a bit more... the base of his pieces are made of PellucideTM, a durable resin compound developed by John Perry. And then he adds wildlife in their beauty as a sculpture.
Well after collecting these pieces for years, his intent on the phone was to sell the collection because "Joe" said what is my wife going to do with these after I leave? I said look at them and admire you... Well he wants to sell us his entire collection for a very small fraction of what they are worth. From what we understand is collection is the most extensive and with John Perry's signature plate that he got on a whim makes it worth all the more... So after all this I am at a quandary... Do I accept his offer to purchase his collection so I can look at it and think of him or do I deny the offer and let the bidding begin on eBay? Would the recipient of his collection look at it the same way I would? Would they take care of them? Will I be able to handle having a piece of him after he dies? These are all things I have to consider... And I have until Sunday. I have a feeling I will say yes, but I know if I say no, I will live to regret it in the future. I guess I am at an emotional battel with myself now wanting to make sure that I do indeed, do the right thing. If there is a right thing to do...
**"Joe", if you are reading this... I love you!
Ok over the weekend, my girlfriend Elle aka psychadelicbuttersnazzy and I were "chit chatting" as she said and I had forwarded her this link to a blog I found here on this site Blogger.com... Unlike other blogs I have seen on here... this was unique to say the least. It was of some a sex blog of dude modeling *penis plugs*! (*Look at the link with your own discretion-- not work friendly). Ok I am not a dude and it hurt me, a woman, like no other... We all know how sensitive men are and well, um that in there is just seemingly WRONG! What guy could do that to himself?? I mean, that's crossing some code of manhood... The girl must be a good lay to do that!! What kind of S & M is that?? And what happens when um, the volcano erupts?? That'd be rather uncomfortable, painful, and any other bad feeling word in there!! I guess I have a lot of questions about this...
So I didn't think anything of it until I saw her post in her blog... Now I am in tears laughing that I have left this lasting impression with her of not me, but of some other dudes PENIS! Elle, I will make it up to you, promise!!
***I do now believe there is a moral of this story, which is be careful of what you expect to find with the "Next Blog" button...It's like a box of chocolates you never know what you will find in the middle... You just may catch some penises with plugs in them when you are merely looking for a good read! Be careful!!
Why is it when you go to the bathroom your nipples get hard?? That's a question I need to take to the "gates" with me!!
Ok, about a week ago I posted about my new weight loss goal and the program I am on for the next 6 weeks.
I am still in the middle of week one and have lost about 5 pounds which is nice. But some of the crap they have you eating for example is All Bran cereal... GROSS!! Ok I gave it a chance using the serving suggestion in my book. 1/4 of cereal and 1/4 cup of milk. You think like that sounds like a very small amount but holy crap if you eat slower you are screwed, because that 1/4 cup turns into a butt-load!! When the milk sucks into the cereal it starts morphing into a small child essentially! I haven't been able to eat a whole 1/4 cup in a week. I mean the longer the cereal is in the bowl and you try to chew it, it becomes a ball in your mouth and I am trying to cheer myself on, going JUST SWALLOW IT!!!!!
I think I may try 1/8 of a cup and that may be easier.
So after a few hours of searching on the web and not knowing how to "host" my own I have settled for this one. I am so computer stupid it's not even funny. I am learning though. So I must give myself credit...
Boy I am tired... until tomorrow!
A fellow Blogger friend of mine brought this to my attention, so I thought I would borrow the idea!!
Everything we write is now searchable!
*Thanks Scott!!
As usual this morning I was in a rush, as usual. So I am driving to work and where I get on the highway was a F-150 in front of me... And as I do every morning when I get on the highway, I get into the left lane. Well I end up passing this dude in his F-150, which seems to be pimped out.... I mean who needs spinners, a spoiler, flame grill, and push bar? I think it's stupid that people drop that kind of money into their vehicles like that. They lose their value so quickly and you never get it back. Buy a house instead! As usual, I digress... Back to the story.... So then he goes right behind me whips around and proceeds to go on my right and stares! Um, ok that's scary people! So I begin to get uncomfortable, who knows what this guy is doing or what he wants... Ya know? I then speed up a little and he does the same and rolls down his window and tries to talk to me!! I just looked at him and looked away. I didn't know what to do! Thankfully he got off 2 exits later so I didn't need to drive with the freak the whole way to work.
Moral of the story... If you are going to try to pick up a girl, don't freaking do it on the highway of all places!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok... In my post for yesterday I had put pissy... While using the spell check on-line here powered by Blogger I assume it didn't recognize pissy. It wanted to replace pissy with um, ok... pussy! What the heck? I think things are ass-backwards if you ask me!!
I just had to share, because it was too funny not to.
**And explain to me why Blogger isn't in the dictonary?!
That is the official thought of the day!
This was me all day today!!
VS. 
Before I begin my post, I want to commemorate Reggie White #92 and the retiring of his number on
**When I was at Lambeau Field in May I was shown where his number was to be retired in the Stadium...
Walking through the tunnel onto the field was an experience to remember, because you are literally walking on the same concrete that all of the other Packer greats, Bart Starr, Vince Lombardi, Earl (Curly) Lambeau, Brett Favre, and Reggie White to name a few... Through the renovations they have kept the concrete and how endearing was it to feel "like one of them" for a moment.
What a rivalry I am looking forward to!! After being a resident of the Greater Cleveland area for nearly seven years this is bittersweet!!! I worked for the construction manager that built the Stadium. So I do have a small spot in my heart for the team as I got to see the stadium go from nothing to something. Here are a few pics, because I am in a generous mood today!!
~~Before and After~~ 
Ok... It is 2005 and I am still trying to figure out the whole point of an iPod. I may be stuck under a rock or something, but hey I am at least honest enough to admit it!! I have friends who have this thing and I just don't know what the hell the point is...
I remember 45's and 8-tracks.... I still can't give up my CD's. Hell in the last few months I have got 5 of them, which would have got me about halfway to purchasing an iPod.
So what do these things do for $200 - $300?? Do they make dinner for you? Do they clean your house? That's a lot of money to spend before you even have one song on there!!! Last Christmas I was at Sam's Club doing some shopping and I saw a couple purchase two of these things for their children for Christmas! I want that Santa to come to my house!!! Their bill totalled around $850!! For two freaking iPods!!! (Now that was including tax...)
Call me crazy or old fashioned, I guess I am, but I just don't understand!
Well last night I decided to sign up for a "Fitness Program" where I work out. It is a 6 week program to boost weight loss. I have lost 43 pounds in 10 months in 2004. I have been at a freaking plateu since then. So hopefully this will help me get the rest off with ease!!
Ok while watching part of the Cleveland Indians game last night something pretty weird happened!!! The lights went out!! The stadium was lit at only 50%. It was kinda neat... I have been to the Terrace Club for corporate events while the stadium wasn't filled and it is very eery looking out the glass onto an empty stadium. You can almost hear the cheering... Yeah I know weird, getting back to the point.
The Indians seem to have the worst luck when it comes to almost anything. In my almost 7 years of living in the Cleveland area they have went from a very popular sports team to nothing and almost something again. Talk about fans on a bandwagon here!! I will admit going to the games in the beginning were fun. But it wasn't the same as my hometeam the Milwaukee Brewers.
Well after losing for most of the game, the Indians turned it around and WON! Holy crap they may stand a chance at again of going to the playoffs and potentially winning the World Series. How many times has Cleveland been in this situation though?? Too damn many. So I would assume that things are good for now, but in the end they will be losers. Sorry, have to go with the cold-hard facts here. --Forgive me! But Broussard, great way to win the game!!
In the 5th inning the Coach for the Indians, Eric Wedge came out questioning a call on a pitch what was a "ball" after reviewing the replay. Wedge came out of the dugout and I couldn't count how many "F-Bombs" he said!! It was rather funny! And thank god for TiVo so I could replay in slow motion to really read the lips of both Wedge and the Umpire. It was quite comical and very entertaining! If only every game was like this! There'd be a lot more fans! The drama...
Ok, as I sit here today wondering what the day will bring... I am totally annoyed!! I was supposed to have a Fraternal Order of Police meeting tonight and I call our President this morning as I do every time before a scheduled meeting, because she doesn't have her shit together... She goes on to tell me; oh we aren't having the meeting tonight or tomorrow at the lodge hall. Um, what the fuck? Do you realize that people have lives and families and set aside time to do things like this?? I could have had plans tonight other than the F.O.P., but nooooo! GRRR! That pisses me off. So now, we are supposed to meet Wednesday or Thursday next week. I hope I will be able to go because I have prior engagement for 7 weeks on Thursday nights. And I will be sure to speak my mind about contacting others in advance about schedule changes. Hell in the land of e-mail, voicemail, etc., there's no excuse!
I am totally anal when it comes to planning. I am not to the point of regimenting my schedule by the minute, but I just want to know what the hell I am doing is all!!!
Ok, I am sure everyone has their own quirks that totally annoys the absolute crap out of them... Well one of mine is sneezing!! On a side note I am not one to talk, because I can sneeze like 5 times in a row almost pissing my pants, but it's all good!!
Well there are some people that sneeze and it sounds like someone is beating the crap out of them because it almost sounds like a scream! And who holds in their sneezes?? You are having over 100mph winds fly out of your mouth, who wants to hold in a potential fast ball, low and on the inside?
Ok, I am done for now! Just had to get that off of my chest!
Why'd you have to lose??????????????????????????????? What a miserable game to watch! I am still festering and my throat is killing me!
Thanks!!
Really wish I was going to the opener against the crummy Browns this weekend!! 
Oh Brett-- nice game you always know how to pull through the difficult times!! *muah*
Ok, I have been thinking about this post for a few days now and am finally coming to grips with posting...
To think of all of the people in those Towers who lost their lives who didn't even have a chance to say good-bye to their families say that one last I love you. We all go through the leaving pissed off at your significant other... How do you live with that or yourself if you were in that situation?
And then to hear of Flight 93 essentially flying over my office building? Talk about scaring the shit out of you! Here's the path of Flight 93. My office is near the far left dot or referred to on the site as #10. My office overlooks
Throughout this whole time I was thinking about my daughter at home... She wasn't even three months old and here she is an innocent infant living through history. She will be reading about this in her history books in the future. Like me living through the Challenger explosion. I was in school sitting around the television cart all excited to see this space shuttle take off and then it explodes in front of my eyes.
Lunchtime comes around and we decide to pick up some salads from a local Italian restaurant, Danny Boy's. They happened to have two televisions in there, which I didn't notice until that day... My boss and I were watching the accounts unfold on the screen... We couldn't believe our eyes. We almost didn't leave we were stunned. We mustered it up to go back into the office and to barely eat. To see what they were explaining on the radio was so devastating.
I understand that we have lost the whole patriotism, with a quick hurry I might add. But to see all of us unite for a short amount of time was truly rewarding. We didn't have race cards thrown into the mix. We all Americans and we acted proud of our country... What happened to that? What has happened to us 4 years later? We are the same old greedy bastards who want more!
I have made a few trips out to
My heart goes out to each and every police officer, fireman, paramedic, EMT, employee of any of the businesses/company and family member of the
Here's my daughter enjoying probably one of the last nice weekends here in North Eastern Ohio at Huntington Beach, Bay Village, Ohio...
I am trying to spell my name...
I spelled my name... Shh, my mom really did!! ;o)
The sun is BRIGHT!!
Sorry if these are crummy pictures, I took these with my camera phone as I forgot my digital at home!
Well obviously I have made it to the other side!!! I am now 2 days past my birthday and everything is still in working order.
For my birthday I was greeted with a Red Velvet Cake...
OMG it was so different to the point of digusting. I have never had anything like it before in my life. I mean who wants to eat a bottle of red die to a white cake with cocoa in it?? Why not have a chocolate cake??? Can't say that I would have it again either. To those of you in the south, I apologize! Not really big on cakes, they make me sick. My office was decorated like a 3 year olds birthday party. My leather executive chair was tied with crepe paper and the whole bit! It was actually kind of fun. My girlfriend took me out to Joe's Deli and we had salads... I got Fattoush Salad. YUMMY!
Then for dinner we went to Buca di Beppo with some of the family and had a great time! I split the Chicken Saltimbocca with prosciutto and artichokes and their Bella Festa for dessert. I am one that is not real big on gifts, but I got two CD's... My Chemical Romance and Gorillaz-- RAWK OUT!
Well back to work for me!!! Playtime is over!!
~~OUT~~
I need some serious advice to fix the margins on this thing... Anyone willing to help a fellow blogger out! I am pretty much a blog virgin that's doing this off the seat of my pants!!!!
THANKS!!!
Ok... I will be the first to say that I am not a political advocate at all... I have my own political beliefs and tend to keep them to myself, because let's face it... It's just not a subject that should be openly discussed amongst friends or strangers. Well today on Oprah, yes I know typical woman show. Well the way she does her news reports is on an eye-to-eye level. She breaks down the "fluff". I will say that I cried for pretty much the entire show. I hadn't been too emotional over the whole Hurricane until yesterday. Oprah went into the SuperDome and what a sight that was. It was so scary!! You don't take into account that it was dark in there until it was pointed out to you. There are dead bodies all over and some are covered and others are just lying out for anyone to see. The contaminants are so disgusting it's ridiculous! E. Coli and all kinds of other health issues are happening down there. How disgusting!!! One person went on to say that these people couldn’t die with any dignity. Oprah's initial accounts of her story were all stories of survivors, which was orchestrated very well, but…
Then Lisa Ling was giving her account of what happened. For those of you who have never heard of Lisa Ling. She's an Asian reporter that does some pretty high-risk documentaries. She has done reports from Prisons to the jungles of Africa giving accounts of African females who are stripped of their feminineness by having their clitoris removed. Well everything was great until she pulled out the fucking race card. If it were in a predominantly white area the response time would have been faster... Holy crap! I can't believe that came out of her mouth and it was aired! Kanye West tried the race card and ABC or NBC and a public apology was made because he decided to speak his mind.
Nate Berkus then went to help out other survivors of Hurricane Katrina. For those of you who have lived under a rock for the past 6 months, Nate was vacationing when the Tsunami hit around Christmas 2004. He lost his life partner and as a result he has been moving on and now he finally has a chance to give back!! What a noble man!!! He helped some guy with his dog. The government is bussing out people to various parts of the US and they are not allowed to bring their animals. The top priority down there is to get the survivors out then concentrate on the dead and then the animals. There are strays all over the place. This gentleman didn’t want to leave his dog behind and he wasn’t going to leave without Rafiki (the dog). So Nate said he was going to take Rafiki and another man’s dog and house them for a night. Nate then reunited both men with man’s best friend. I know it sounds so miniscule, but some people really love their pets and they are truly a part of their error.
Then lastly… these Americans that have become homeless are being referred to as refugees!! Um, they are American citizens who have lost everything!! And now they are refugees??? Ah, no! They aren’t coming from Mexico or Cuba these are our own and to be called refugees is so sad…
Oh, and did any of these people think that there is a hierarchy with the government??? You have City, State and Federal Law… There are chains of command and the federal government can’t step in unless the State asks for help!!!!
Ok, I have babbled on way too long… Just had to vent this because it’s bullshit!!
Well today I was cleaning the house... I know sounds so exciting!!! And well today was for about 5 minutes. I was cleaning my bathroom and was shaking out the rugs and out popped a daddy long legs looking spider on steroids!!! HOLY CRAP! I couldn't believe my eyes! This thing was huge! My daughter freaked out and ran away like a little girl and I had to muster up the courage to kill this beast. So I am looking on my sink for any cleaning product that could help me... With no avail, I see my salon hairspray that is like $100 a bottle. Ok... more like $15, that's a lot to make your hair stay in place. So I decide to spray this spider with my super hold hairspray!! This thing looked like it was moving in slow motion, probably because it was sticky!! So now this thing is in a corner and I am not going to grab it or anything so I see the cord to my blow-dryer.
Yes, the little excitement in my life... I need to get out more!!
Well... thankfully today is another day. I woke up, am alive, healthy, etc.
I have a birthday coming up pretty quickly... It's September 7th and this year I am going to be the golden age of 27. You may ask why I make a "big deal" of my turning one year older, but it's more than that. See I lost my father when I was 4 years old. When my father passed away he was 27 which is why this is such a pivotal year for me and me revisiting my true meaning on this earth. The other part is that my daughter is now 4 and the numbers didn't hit me hard until her birthday in June... So for almost 3 months I have been flipping out having a mid-life crises per se hoping that D-Day would never come to fruition. Although I can not take the day away, skip it or hide from it. The inevitable is that I will be 27! I am hoping that this year will give me the strength that I need to get through the rest of my life.
I have been told for essentially my entire life to pick up and move on. You can not dwell over your father... Um... HELLO, he IS my father. He helped create me for Pete’s sake!!! I just can't forget him like a bad habit! I will agree that 23 years ago grievance counseling probably wasn't around and who knows how small children handle the loss of a close loved one. I have been hanging onto memories totaling less than 4 years. I mean how old were you when you had your first memory?? I'd say I can remember things to when I was about 3. But only because I have no choice to remember then otherwise I'd have nothing to hang onto. And that's it; I am hanging onto the legacy of my father. He was such a great man and I miss him SO much...
My true thoughts are to live each to day to its fullest and have no regrets when your head hits the pillow at night... But I am still having small regrets at night and I want to know that when I go to bed that I am happy with what I have accomplished up unto this point. I mean I have had a pretty nice life... I built my house at 22 along with having my beautiful daughter all within the same year. So I am pretty fortunate to have all of that. But I want to seize the day!!
Writing this has actually become quite cathartic and is helping me to deal with the issue at hand... But I need to live what I preach.
As always... thanks for those of you who are reading... Normally I am not so depressing!!
Ok... I have spent all morning trying to figure out how to work out this blog to fit my likings!!! HOLY CRAP! I know nothing about computers and programming... Where are all of my IT friends when I need them! Too bad I am not 100% "geek"!! Just 50%!
I just want to know how to add friends that I have come across on here now... then my work will be done-- for now!!
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